as soon as im ready...

i will stop calling as soon as im ready.

i won't look for you when i sign on to chat.

i'll stop hoping i'll run into you around the next corner.

i might even stop checking my mail every morning expecting you've had an epiphany in your dreams the night before and all of a sudden, ready to try something.

i'll stop pretending like everything is okay...the day things really do become okay.

i won't hope for you to look at me and finally see something different, something beautiful.

all this i promise to do...all this i want to do...as soon as im ready.